My Grandma has put me down, calling me lazy, stupid dumb, etc., thinking it would help me, and all i would do is cry. My mom has said some of the cruel things my grandma has said, but denys she ever said them. I was yelled at alot when i was growing up. I was yelled at by teachers, neighbors, kids, grandparents, and parents. My real dad is never around. I remember growing up, trying to get them back together, but never succeeded.~Now about my real dad, he has alot of issues. Personally i watched my mom being a jerk to him as i grew up. I remember this one time, my dad hadn't seen me in a long time so he bought me a gameboy, you know the old ones? anyways, about a week later my mom took it to a pawn shop and got money for it. When i was about 7/8 i asked her what happened to it and she told me it broke. I asked her about it simultaniously through 4 years. I asked her again, at 17, what had happened to it and she told me that i wanted the money. Personally, what 5 year old would trade in a gameboy for money? Well anyways I have mentioned about my moms gambling, and yep you guessed it. She used the money from my real dads gift to try to win at a casino. She even took $200 out of my account to go gambling~. Well anyways back to my story. I was hit when i was younger, by belts and hangers, mostly by hand. Well that leaves me to tell you that i also have A.D.D (attention defict disorder), its pretty much a short attention span. Well anyways i remember doing my homework and being told "why are you so lazy?" The truth is i wasn't being lazy, i just didn't understand. It was very hard to comprehend stuff. Having A.D.D is like basically living life in the slow lane if you know what i mean. ok let me ask you this, Have you ever experienced a "phase" in life that almost everybody goes? for example, growing out of power rangers and into lizzie maguire? well when you are in the lizzie phase, i'm just BARELY getting to the power ranger phase. I hope that didnt confuse you. OK REALLY back to my story. Evertime i try to go on a diet and exercise, its starts off good for about 2 weeks, and then something happens. Like i would have a bad day at school or at home, so what do i do? EAT, EAT, and EAT. (As i am writing (typing) this its like a part of me that i have kept inside and denied.) I have Over-eating disorder, which honeslty i never realized. I eat to comfort, when i am sad, and when i am bored. I feel like i cant do a exercise and diet program without someone by my side. And I admit, I AM LAZY! I WOULD RATHER GET IT SUCKED OUT THAN DO THE WORK!!! but as i thought about it over the years, i would have scars from surgery, but if i do it the natural way, i wont have as much. I guess to let go of this weight om my shoulders, i feel i must let everyone know that I have a eating disorder. I always read about the first step to success is being truthful, and here i am. with saying that, i am feeling extremely better about myself. and with that i am done for now.