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From Ropati, Age 14

Ht. 5'6", Start: 280 lb, Today: 401 lb, Goal: 180 lb - Hey peoples, I'm new to all of this so here it is. As you can see I'm an over-weight teen and it's been following me all my life. When i was in the fifth grade, i weighed 280lbs. and it's been down hll from there, well up scale, get it. My 8th grade year i weighed 365lbs. As you can see, I gained a lot of weight. I'm the kind of Fat Person that hides his pain through hilarity. Making others laugh to distract them from the way I look. But that's the thing, how do i know if they're laughing with me, instead of at me. That's the question I ask myself all the time. I'm now a freshman in high school starting with a clean slate. Walking the halls of high school Isn't so scary to me, well that's because I'm SO HUGE. You know, some of my friends use me as a walking brick wall to get through people. I don't mind, and then again, I do. Whenever people do they do that to me, I'm always lauhging, when really, it's a reality check. It's like a HUGE slap in the face, like, c'mon dude get yourself together. I've struggled with weight problems my whole life and it's really getting on my nerves. Whenever the holidays come around, I get SOOOO happy, all the great food and drinks especially Thanksgiving. Whenever it comes to holidays that include lots of food, and candy, I think to myself, "should i.....I know it's the wrong thing to do..... UGH!! forget it, diet tomorrow." Mentally i wanna lose weight, but physically i don't. I'm tired of being the ONLY FAT PERSON in the room where EVERYBODY looks at when you walk in. Then when you looke back at them they TURN AWAY and then once you've turned away, BOOM! their eyes are STARING directly at YOU. HEEEEEEEELP!!! I really need it. Please send me some tips.