From Claire, Age 19 - 09/15/08 - IP#: 64.131.204.xxx  Click here to reply  
Ht. 5'4", Start: 210 lb, Today: 177 lb (BMI %tile: 94), Goal: 150 lb - I'm losing the weight for the right reason. I always have been but lately I've been thinking about guys. I've been having dreams about guys (one that I've been crushing on since I was 14 and one that I've been crushing on since Feb) they were nice dreams...some of them, we're I was with either one of them and get this--in the dreams, I was skinny. It just makes me wish that I was skinny so that they could notice me because I know that's what it is. Of course i don't want a guy who just wants me because of my body (those types are jerks) I want someone who wants me for my heart but still in order to FEEL beautiful around a guy, I want to to be thin and healthy. I want to feel comfortable and not have a guy struggle to put his arms around me. I want to have a guy be able to take me in his arms and lift me off my feet. I want to be lighter than a guy and not heavier..you know what I mean? it just makes me feel like crap knowing how long this is taking. Also, I hate my stomachsssssss that's right plural! :(