From Michelle, Age 14 - 04/07/02 - IP#: 63.168.31.xxx  Click here to reply  
I want to share with all of you (especially the people who are new here) a little bit of my story. I have lost about 25 pounds since I came to this board over a year ago. I was 175 pounds and hated myself for it. Actually, that's not true, I liked myself until the world didn't and started commenting about it. So I took it upon myself to learn all I could about weight loss, the tips, tricks, advice. I told myself I would love myself if I could weigh only 160 pounds, but when I got there, I didn't like myself anymore than when I had started. I told myself I would find happiness at 150 pounds, wrong again. Today I am around 145 pounds, and pretty much wish I was still 175 pounds, because I loved myself for me then. I keep telling myself that happiness for myself will come at 140 pounds, or 130 pounds, but I doubt that's true. Basically, what I'm saying is, knowledge is good, but for me, it became destructive. I lost the weight for me, but I still feel I'm not good enough. Don't lose weight for the wrong reasons, because you want to fit in or you think it will make yourself feel better. You have to truly love yourself before you can make any major changes on your body, I think I skipped a step that will cost me a lot of self respect and self acceptance.