From Ana, Age 16 - 12/01/02 - IP#: 66.69.76.xxx  Click here to reply  
I see this sight is seen by alot of well-really young-people, but I need a place to vent right now. Ive gained 10 lbs and Im very ashamed,I eat like there's no tomorrow. I hate food. My mom yelled at me because she says that all I focus on is my appearance, my obsession with being thin, which, I won't admit to her, is true.
Im going to college soon, and there's alot of fights and tension in the family,...guess what its about....food! I get yelled at for eating too much, not eating enough, or what im supposed too, I get yelled at because I go into bouts of depression on how Ive gained so much wieght, the wieght I had lost. 125lbs, that magical number. Countless times Ive wished for it all to go away, this obession, food...wished to have all the fat sucked out of my body and there...I awake to have that beautiful small waist and flat stomach with small thighs, nothing bouncing at all because thier is no fat. I used to excercise like crazy, thats when i lost the most wieght, but because of that I got diagnosed with ATHLETIC AMENORHEA, it happens to girls when they excercise too much. Now im here, with the awful 10lbs back and looking for the point of my life, whats the point,...its too much too handle. I want the fat all cut away...