From anne, Age 16 - 12/03/03 - IP#: 216.66.108.xxx  Click here to reply  
wow- i really messed up on my diet tonight and i felt so disgusting. i promised to myself that i'll never ever eat myself sick again like i did tonight. it was more pain then joy. tomorrow i'm going to do great though- and i did drink a little over a gallon of water today so hopefully it wasn't a complete waste! i'm going to exersize a lot but i know that my week isn't destroyed by this- i might even lose more weight because of this because it's gotten me to do more about it. i've had 4 really good days and then 3 really bad days and still lost 2 pounds- heck- i did that last week! i was just a little stressed and bummed and depressed about school but after marty got out of work he made me feel so much better. he's my bestest friend in the entire world and i know that i can change my life however i want to with him by my side because i'm not so afraid of failing because he'll stick around no matter what. it's a wonderful thing- expecially for a writer to be able to feel the horrible hollowness of depression- the lowest of feelings and then feel the most wonderful and highly amazing feeling of being comepletely satisfied with just one person, and knowing no matter what problems you face when you're seperated will just wipe clear when you see them later. he's my insipration and my muse for life but i'm not even losing all of this weight for him- i'm doing it for myself and that's a good feeling to be able to change yourself to exactly how you want yourself to be and having the confidence to do so. sorry about all of this babble but i really needed to sort out my day because it was so emotional and my emotions really take charge of my diet and i want to wake up tomorrow morning with a clean slate. sorry if i was annoying and took up too much space or time but i just want everyone to know that there are amazing people that look beyond the outer image and also that you can make any goals that you set for youself. good luck everyone...