From Lola, Age 15 - 06/12/10 - IP#: 64.90.221.xxx  Click here to reply  
Ht. 5'5", Start: 250 lb, Today: 250 lb (BMI %tile: 98), Goal: 150 lb - I've battled my weight pretty much my entire life, and im sick of it. It seems like ive been tryin to lose weight since i was 11. At that time i got so fed up with my weight that i went on a serious diet and exercise program. I lost a lot of weight really quickley and i got in amazing shape. But i became so obsessed with my weight that i wasn't really happy anymore. I became depressed and it seemed like my life was falling apart. Around the same time, my older sister was diagnosed with brain cancer, and the one person i thought i could trust, my best friend totally went behind my back and was spreading rumors. It felt like my life was over. I soon gave up running and let my grades drop, i simply didnt care anymore. I didnt see a point in caring. Since then my depression has gotten much better, but in those four years i had many counslers and went from one depression medication to another. I also gained about 100lbs in those same four years. Im a much more stable person now but im sick of being the fat girl and i really want to lose weight. I luv my friends and they are beautiful and skinny, but when they critique themselves i look at myself and i want to cry. When i listen to my friends say how they dont think they are pretty and guys will never like them because they arent beautiful it makes me feel completely worthless. I never talk to my friends about me weight loss wishes because they would never understand what i feel like. I listen to what people say about the other big kids and i know they probally say that about me when i walk away. I know that i will probally never have a boyfriend atleast not in highschool because the only thing that matters is looks. They will never take the time to get to know me because im not the beautiful skinney girl that they want. I can honestly say with no doubt in my mind that i hate the way i look and i dont really love myslef. Im now 15. I am 5'5 and about 250 pounds. I want to lose weight so i can be more confident and less self-conscience. I want to start running this summer so i can get in shape, and learn to like myself again. Any advice or someone who is looking for a weight loss buddy count me in.
Reply from Jessica, Age 15 - 05/23/11  - IP#: 71.0.107.xxx
I know how you feel, I am sorry to hear that, I had a best friend to that I thought would be trusted. I would try get back on a running team again.. I promise you try slow running, first once you get used to it then do faster for running, ride a bike, walking, dance in your room,, walk your dog, if you have one.. If you have a favorite that you cant wear right now draw it on a peace of paper. And say food is for really really stomach not for feelings... Only eat when you are hungery. Drink a lot of water, I would try reaching your goal 140-130 pounds that is a good weight for 5"5.. Dont give up I never gave up running when I was 162 pounds I would get back on running and do track team again.. That would help you lose some weight.. And bring a water bottle.. EatingWell is a good diet to use you can make school lunches on that. Or Diet book for Teengers only.. It is a popular book for teens who are trying to lose.. I have read some pages,
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