From Claire, Age 19 - 07/19/08 - IP#: 64.131.205.xxx Click here to reply
Ht. 5'4", Start: 210 lb, Today: 176 lb, Goal: 140 lb - Ok so my binging has gone out of control. Like completely out of control!
I feel like I can't control myself. My brain just switches off and I eat everything I see and thats why I hate it when people leave the house and leave me alone and I go to the fridge and just eat everything like a pig. I feel like if I don't stop this I'll be back to where I was and that's the last thing I want! I can't get back to something that horrid! everytime I tell myself to not do it, I binge. It's like I don't listen to myself. It just happens like a reflex and I can't stop it. So I'm going on a 2 day fast (starting today) because I need to control myself and if I can control myself for 2 days I'll feel like I can do anything. I feel like I'm obsessed with food and I just have to complete this fast in order to get my mind straight and realize that food shouldn't be able to control me. I can control myself. It's all about brain power and willpower. I will succeed. Don't worry this fast will go no longer than 2 days. I know people who on 30 day fasts and those are so dangerous, they don't eat a single thing. I'm just doing it 2 days to prove to myself that I don't have to be eating every single sec of the day. I have to get my binge under control because that's whats made me gain the 18 lbs over the past year. Wish me luck, please guys. And good luck to you alll