From Shay, Age 16 - 04/23/04 - IP#: 65.254.5.xxx  Click here to reply  
I am so ashamed... I remember when I went to the doctor on January 15th, I was about 240. I know I didnt get serious about losing weight until a few weeks after that. Anyhow I got down to 226 about a week and a half ago. Then this past week I got down to 221.5! The lowest I have ever been in about 2 years I think. Wednesday morning I was 223.5. I had a tuna salad with lettuce and tomatoe on a roll for lunch and a salad with NO dressing but chicken, slices of bacon, scallions, and boiled eggs. TONS OF WATER. And when I woke up yesterday morning I was 221.5! I had the same thing for lunch i had the night before but with a pear. When I got home I was only up to 222 which I knew I would burn off. But then I decided to make a sandwich because I was STARVING, but it was only worth no more then 200 cals. So I ate it and weighed myself. Everything was fine but I was STILL hungry. I ordered chinese food...Chicken egg foo young. I thought I could just eat half the meal and not feel bad. Kind of like a treat for myself for doing so well lately (I have also been doing my Taebo EVERYDAY). I hate half of it and I just had to weigh myself. I went up to 224.5. I started to see red. I got hysterical. I was thinking about all of the things I want to do this summer and how i dont want to be embarrassed anymore and I couldnt take it. I made myself throw up for about a half hour straight and I was crying and blood was coming out but I just couldnt stop. I couldnt breathe at one point. I felt terrible! But then when I got on the scale it was back down to 221.5. Then I felt so happy. I went to work, came home and I was only up to 222. But I knew I had just drank a LOT of water. I woke up this morning and I am now 219.5. I am happy but I also feel bad. I dont want to make this a habit. But I dont want to get in that situation and I do that again because I KNOW it will work. Somebody please help me. I know it is wrong and I tell myself I will never do that again. But idk if I will think like that if I get as desperate again
Reply from claudia, Age 19 - 04/27/04  - IP#: 12.73.78.xxx
This can become a habit faster than you think. I've been struggling with it for years and have to say that the emotional pressure of it is rough. It's a very hard thing to overcome so if you can stop it before i'ts a habit you'll be much better in the long run. Maybe you could exercise everytime you feel you should throw up...or anyting really...paint, draw, listen to music, sing, something....		 
Reply from Krystle, Age 19 - 04/24/04  - IP#: 195.93.33.xxx
I've been in your shoes, you don't want to make throwing up a habit. It makes your heart go weaker every time and is no good. When you get straving, eat fruit and try to fill upon that!!! Don't worry about gaining a little weight back, it will slowly go down over time. It also sounds like you weighting yourself everyday, that gives you the wrong information because your weight will go up and down all the time. Your best bet is to only step on the scales once a week at the same time. And you should only aim to do five days of exercise a week. Your body has to rest and can't work all the time. Don't do any more than an hour a day, because you'll just over do it. Take your time, because the results will be even more worthwild!!!!!!!!!! Take care babe, and if you need to vent I'll listern. Hodgypie@aol.com		 
Reply from Katie, Age 17 - 04/23/04  - IP#: 195.93.33.xxx
Please dont make yourself sick - it just messes up your metabloism, I used to do it and in the end the only thing that made me stop was that a friend of mine is dying from annoexia - I dunno about u but I would rather be fat and have a good live than be like her... Anyway if you do it for a long while once you eat normally you pile it on - go for a healthy option - seriously you can do it!!! In Jan I was 130 - now im almost 50lbs lighter - you've already lost nearly 20 so dont give up! If u want sum1 2 talk 2 leave your email addy below. Good luck xxx		 
Reply from (a$$!3, Age 16 - 04/23/04  - IP#: 195.93.33.xxx
You HAVE to stop weighing yourself so much or you'll get obsessed! your weight goes up and down during the days and weeks, u have to choose ONE day of the week to weigh yourself and then only do it once on that day, in the morning. And throwing up won't solve anything either. I'm sorry if I'm sounding harsh but that's just the way it is.