From emily, Age 15 - 07/05/03 - IP#: 24.77.180.xxx Click here to reply
Today: 245 lb - well, yeah its me em.
I weigh 245 lbs. i hate it. every morning i wake up wishing i wasnt me. people think its easy to lose weight. its not. i hate how i look, and how i feel. i hate my skinny friends and how they complain all the time about how "fat" they are. I dont actully eat that much. im just fat. fat. fat. fat.
i hate shopping because nothing fits me. EVER. i cant shop with my friends because they go to store like "American Eagle" and "The Gap" and nothing fits me.
I hate wearing clothes form the mens section. dammit im a woman, i want to wear womans clothes. Even the pants dont fit me in the mens section. dammm i hate it. I hate how the sizes go only to 14. im a freakin size 24. i hate it. everyhting about it.
everynight i go to sleep wishing that i would magically be skinny. i would feel so carefree and happy. but no, i am stuck in my fat, grotesque body. BLAH i hate it. I even tried running 2 miles a day for three weeks. NOTHING. no results, im still as fat as ever. mabye worse. every week i swear im gaining more pundage. i want to throw up thinking of it.
In every fat person, there is a skinny one screaming to get out.