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From michelle, Age 16

Ht. 5'6", Start: 213 lb, Today: 221 lb, Goal: 135 lb - i've been overweight my whole life. things would be so much different if i wasn't. i've never had a boyfriend or anything even close to that. it's hard for me to talk to boys because i know that they're just interested in how girls look, it's high school. after a while it really hits me hard. my parents are concerned with my weight, and up until a couple days ago i wasn't too worried about it. yeah, i've tried numerous diets, but they never seem to work. i always say "oh, i'll start tomorrow" and i never do. but now, it's time to get serious. i want to feel better about myself. i want to look good in clothes, but i always find an excuse not to eat right and exercise. but i'm to the point where i need to. i don't have a choice, it's either now or never. if i don't start now, i'm never going to do it. there is snow outside, so until it melts, i'll just stick push ups, sit ups, jumping jacks and lifting weights. i have a doctors app. tomorrow and the one thing i dread is getting on that scale in front of my mom, because i know i'm gonna get a lecture right after. those lectures only make me feel worse. i mean, it's not like i'm hearing anything new. this is the heaviest i've ever been in my life and it's the worst feeling. all of my friends are skinny and when we go shopping, it's embarrassing that i can't fit into anything that they shop for. the worst thing about being overweight are the jokes. skinny people don't understand how hard it is for overweight people to be the way that they are. they dont understand how hard it is for us to change our eating habbits and our way of living. losing weight isnt easy. i know i'll be a much happier person if i lose weight. i just need to stay motivated. my diet starts now and hopefully i'll come close to my goal. if i don't make my goal, that's okay. i just want to look and feel good.. and of course be healthy.