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From Claire, Age 19

Ht. 5'4", Start: 210 lb, Today: 165 lb, Goal: 140 lb - So, I knew I was gaining weight what with the stress of college and work and all but I Didn't know it was this bad. Ok I knew it was this bad but I refused to believe it (denial of course). I was doing SO good and I went on the scale today and it said something around 176. I still can't believe it. I felt like breaking down. I was the one everyone else was turning to when I started dropping so much weight...my chubby friends said how I was their inspiration and now I'm gaining? I can't believe it. I feel so miserable again. If I don't do something now it will just get worst and I'll be up in the 200's again and I'm not living a life of hell again. Life's too short for that crap. I'm doing 4 miles everyday again like I used to no matter how much work I have and stressed I am. This weight gain is mostly stress. I have to find some kind of calming- resting technique--anyone have any ideas? seriously I need something to calm myself. I'm always so anxious and with the anxiety comes the stress. Now my chubbier friends are dropping SO much weight and I'm getting fat again. This is ridiculous and I feel so terrible. I just had to come here and spill. Hope someone understands. This summer it's all going to end. I'm losing 20 lbs by Sept 1st. This is my goal. Join me will you? we can help eachother out be eachothers motivation. I'm serious about this and nothing will come in my way. Wow this was long. I'm sure no one will read it..just had to vent. Good luck to you all! I know I make college sound like a hell hole where all you are is stressed...lol so I'm sorry, it's just me. I can't multi task. College isn't AS bad. Take Care...my challenge starts today. Best of luck to you all!