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From Rebekah, Age 15

Hi everyone, this is my first time posting. I just turned 15 on July 2nd, Im 5'6 and I wiegh 193 pounds. The most I've ever weighed was 204. I've been overwieght most of my life... I've kept to myself alot in the past. I hardly In elementary, I would never take off my jacket and hood because it was my security blanket. I felt like they couldnt see me. Middle school was tough too, I still wore my jacket 6&7th grade. I was still made fun of, but I had gotten used to it, so it never really bothered me... then one day... I disconnected the phone while my sister was still on it, and she got mad and called me a 'stupid fat ass'. That broke my heart... my sister and I are soooo close... she was quite literally my only friend... then... when she called me that name... I was alone. To this day Im still made fun of... mostly by my siblings. Things at school are fine, no one really makes fun of me any more. But boys are a major problem. I have had 3 boyfriends. My first one cheated on me, and the last two turned gay. I have had crush after crush but have been too scared to make a move. I feel like they wont even give me a second look. It hurts really bad when you feel like your not beautiful. I really want to loose weight though... ALOT OF IT. My goal is to get down to a size 7 and Im currently at a 16. I dont have a specific time frame... just ASAP. I would really really like the imput of everyone here... I will take every bit of advice I can get. Please share your secrets!