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From ella, Age 18

Ht. 6'0", Start: 226 lb, Today: 174 lb, Goal: 165 lb - Yeah, so I cheated and weighed in a day early :) I'm now at 6' tall, 174 lbs down from 226...lol...Anyways, I am nine pounds from my goal which is frankly kind of weird. I've struggled with my weight for almost as long as I can remember and its strange to be in this place. Usually I would set goals and do crazy diets only to fail, gain back the ten pounds, and feel just as bad about myself as before. This time;however, is different. I didn't set a date to diet and I didn't make any huge changes. I still eat chocolate and ice cream and normal things. Just in smaller amounts and less frequently. I don't count calories, carbs, or anything. Its weird. I tried on my first bikini since I was thirteen and its strange. It actually looked alright. The weirdest thing though is that I thought once I got to my goal weight I'd be happy. Well, I'm nine pounds away and I wear a size 10 (sometimes an 8 :) ) and I'm not. I still feel gross and its weird because I still feel I look so much bigger than everybody else and than my sorority sisters put me back in perspective and I realize that I'm not. Sorry this post really has no point. I'm excited about reaching my goal;however, I think I'm going to lower it to 135 or 145 when I reach it...or else just screw goals and lose until I feel good with myself.