Message Replying To

From aimee, Age 13

Ht. 5'5", Start: 184 lb, Today: 184 lb, Goal: 140 lb - Hi, i just found this website tonight, so i'm new to it. I really like this website, i don't feel alone anymore after reading some of the posted storys and thoughts. Today i went back to school shopping, for jeans. I've been overweight my whole life, ever sense i can remember i've always been heavier than everyone eles. When i was little i could never find jeans i liked or that fit, and i've had some really weird phases of clothes, 5th grade was the worst for me. I go back to school the 25th of August, and the soccer season starts really soon after. In my school anyone in grades 6-8 can try out for sports. I'm a slow runner, but its not like my legs are too tired, or hurt, its my breathing that gets me, i could run a mile if my breathing would let me and my legs could keep going. I'm always the last on to finsh the mile run in my school, and such. I hate how my thighs look sitting down, the fat in my thighs flattens out and then looks really big. In 6th grade, i made the soccer team, (there was just 22 players and thats the number they take) and after the season was over, i saw that i was in better shape than i was before, but in 7th grade i didn't make it. I was crushed, i didn't go to the games, because i knew i'd see the girl's on the team, and then i'd feel horrible. There were a few girls who i didn't think should have made it, but i guess it's not my choice. And i don't know if this is going to make sense at all, but my feelings for my coach changed, and part of me understood that she had to pick the best, but part of me wanted to know why she didn't pick me, and i was partly mad, and now she's my homeroom teacher for 8th grade. I'm really scared of trying out, i want to make it more than anything right now but i'm scared. In my tryouts last year, i couldn't finsh part of the running because i was out of breath, and i got really slow on another running thing. Also i go slower then the other girls so i can keep going and don't lose my breathe. I'm scared of not making it as an 8th grader,(my school is 1-8 grade) and keep going back an forth to tryout or not. What do you girls think? if i were to tryout i should have started running when summer started but i didn't and i hate that i didn't, but i don't know what i should do if i'm going to tryout, should i run, and how far? Running is diffently my weakest thing. Can someone give me some addvice on weather i should tryout or not, and if i'm going to try out, what i should do to start getting ready? Thanks :]