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From Marie, Age 14

Ht. 5'2", Start: 163 lb, Today: 140 lb, Goal: 105 lb - So I have recently went to the doctor, and found out I weighed around 40 poundish? Last I checked I was 163, but that was before joining Tae Kwon do (martial arts) and well, the normal weight that was given to me was 98 pounds, especially because of my height. Hearing that, made the world upside down, I was shocked. I felt disgusted, angered, frustrated at myself, even at others. Finding this site....well it gives me courage to lose weight, i'm always one of those types that go "Hey, I should start losing weight" And think it's a total major idea, but I always lose motivation. I lack determination. Now I am fat, I accept the fact i'm fat and I judge myself harshly. I say all these things about myself, even if my friends disagree. I want to lose 40-50 pounds in at least two months and right now. It sounds utterly impossible to me, I've always been fat my whole life, well chubby. And it's just impossible for me to think I can actually reach that. I am starting to drink lots of water, in fact I just drank 5 cups right now, not sure if thats safe or not. I just feel really disgusted at myself. I can never keep one goal, and never reach it, I really lack determination. Hopefully i'll be able to lose weight. I think I might even be depressed because of this. But yeah, this site has given me one of those "Hey maybe I can do this" inspiration. I hope I can this time.