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From Lucee, Age 17

Ht. 5'8", Start: 179 lb, Today: 160 lb, Goal: 140 lb - Okay, so this is my 5th day of getting back on track. I've been doing okay so far, there is still room for improvement though! The thing is...i have the biggest urge to binge right now. I used to get this all the time when i was bulimic (spent nov 07-nov 08 going to a therapist for that but stopped going as i didnt think it was making any difference after i got to a certain step in recovery). I mean, i dont really have huge binges anymore like i used to where i would consume literally about 3000-4000 calories in the space of about 30 mins just shoving stuff into my mouth, but i do still have days where ill eat a lot of junkfood when im not even hungry which usualy totals up to about 2500 calories for the whole day! Im trying to regulate my eating and make it more consistent so im totalling below 2000 calories every day, even on the days where i allow myself to have some junk food, which im trying to limit to a couple times per week. I dont know why i feel like i have to eat a lot of sugary things, its not as if im eating too little- today ive had about 850 calories and ive not even had dinner yet! Does anyone else get this feeling? I know it helps to distract yourself by doing other things but i have a lot of school work to do at the moment which i find incredibly boring but i cant do something more fun cos i need to get the work done! All i can think about is food!!