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From ylat, Age 16

Ht. 5'3", Start: 166 lb, Today: 166 lb, Goal: 140 lb - I never thought I would get to the point where I had to call myself "overweight" I have always been curvier than other people, I have big breast and hips and a small waist, what you would call a pear shaped girl. I have been dieting since I'm about 8 years old, and this subject has become more of a trauma than anything else. I'm always sad because of my weight,I don't do stuff that I would actually like to do because of my insecurities like dancing in public, and because of this I HATE to be seen in public whether it's in the mall or at my school's play. I just hate myself, I feel that I would be such a different person if I lost weight. But the problem is that I have tried every single diet that you could imagine, Atkins, Weight Watchers, The Cayenne pepper cleanser, not eating, eating just rice, name it and I can tell you all about it. I just loose my patience when I see no changes, no immediate changes I just stop what ever diet I'm doing and start to eat again. It's just frustrating. And about boys, don't even mention it, they don't even take a second look at me, and that's the way it's going to be if I don't change. I need help! because I know that before changing physically I have to change what's in my heart.