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From Sabrina, Age 13

Ht. 5'4", Start: 150 lb, Today: 137 lb, Goal: 125 lb - Abbie this is for you. Just you. Sometimes life isnt always about rainbows and butterflies. Since I was 7 my mom has been diginosed with RSD do the reasearch on your own time. There is no cure. No treatment except for hard narcotics. Those barley touch the pain. She will never be cured, and even better she is almost done living. She is at the end of stage 3 out of 4. No one knows what stage 5 is like because they all committ suicide before it progresses any further.She is dying sowly and painfully day by day. She is in constant pain. I dont know if u know what that is like to see your mom of 46 years of age pick out her casket and her gravestone, her burial site, and the photo she wants there at the veiwing but let me tell u and belive me when i say im crying right now just thinking about her dying, its not easy.But knowing that one day im going to come home to her body being somewhere life-less is really depressing and realy painfull. She will most likely commit suicide before im 18. Im 13 turning 14 this year. And to top that off she has tried to commit suicide twice already. So why dont you put yourself in my shoes and take that in. Maybe then you can add all of that plus other issues i have and understand why i (used to)cut myself. i will not consider me done cutting untill January 31 2013. Thats the last time i did it this year.Andim not getting a therapist, they do not need to know about me, right now i might sound pathetic and simple minded but no matter how many times i can be tokd to go get help i honestly dont need it. Ive been preparing myself for whe she goes. So im sorry if i corruped your perfect happy world and intoduced you to life. Heres a couple of songs i reccomend u looking up- Never too late,break,lost in you,and Pain by three days grave