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From Ellen, Age 15

Ht. 5'5", Start: 181 lb, Today: 191.6 lb, Goal: 135 lb - Gained another pound, I kinda could tell I had gained weight. I felt heavier (even though 1 pound may not seem like a lot it is for me). It just seems like every time I try to loose weight my belly enlarges more and more! I all goes to my belly and inner thighs, and my arms to! My arms have gotten bigger, it's embarrassing to lift them up bc they're so fatty and saggy. And my belly had gotten MORE stretch marks, Ughhhh I hate it so much! My jeans are getting smaller and smaller (size 18). I hate being this big so so much! It's awful to have you're best friend ask you about your health. The other day she asked me if I'd gained weight, out of concern. And I told her I had. She had a serious conversation about my health and my obesity. And I'm still in gym class and having to change in front of the skinny, healthy girls. They make fun of me and jiggle my belly and poke my belly button bc it goes in really deep. I can't help it, I'm in love with food! I eat when I'm bored, stressed, calm, and hungry of couse. I eat the equivalent of 8 meals a day and I can not stop myself! I know it's bad for my health and I know I'm only going to get bigger, but I love food to much to diet. Well that's it for now, bye!