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From Elina, Age 16

Ht. 5'1", Start: 162 lb, Today: 209 lb, Goal: 135 lb - Okay listen I'm not the type to butter things up or anything I give tough love but not about this . In this generation your required to be a certain type of way or you won't receive any love and affection like for example you must have a big ass flat stomach boobs long hair etc. you see that's the problem we can't love ourselves these days I'm currently 209 pounds I was always chunky growing up but as I got to middle school my parents were worried that I was gonna get bullied so they put me in a gym I had to work out 6 days a week for atleast 4 hours I was put on a strict diet also a strict schedule I was only 12 . At first I was really upset because I cared about what other people thought of me but as I started losing weight I was feeling so good about myself I could finally wear crop tops shorts I was getting male attention it was nice but it never changed who I was . I am a VERY sensitive person I stress a lot to but when I stress I eat (stress eating) so as I grew older my body started getting thicker and thicker then my parents came in again when I started high school I was so insecure so depressed . But I suck it up and started to learn on how to love myself .honestly it was so hard I would cry at times and be so mad at my self for letting myself go and went on a eating spree I did so good with my body I was for once confident ! That was a big deal for me . I never knew how important it was to love myself currently I'm just starting my sophomore year I weigh atleast 209 pounds and I'm only 16. I love myself ! All the stretch marks the chubbyness and everything but remeber when I mentioned my parents pressuring me to always lose weight yeah that's happening again . I just wish they can accepts the fact that I love who I am there's nothing wrong with bieng extra squishy or having a little more curve then others . Listen lady's if you feel down all the time because you don't look the the girl who's dating the captain of the football team or if your insecure and depressed you need to stop You can either EMBRACE who you are or make a change it's up to you your beautiful either way . Wear that crop top you've been wanting to wear ! Show of your curves in that sexy swimsuit ! Go prove society wrong prove them that nobody can change who you are. I really hope what I just wrote makes some typa sense or changes the way u think things . Iknow it's hard to love yourself in a world that teaches you not to but you are worthy you are loved you are beautiful inside n out <3