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From AJ, Age 15

Hi. Im AJ. Im 15,F, 5'6 and 260-275 lb's. I don't know if I have always been this overweight. I have tried to diet and excersize but i cant do it alone. When I do it with some 1 eles it motervates me to do it. But all my friends are skinner than me, and I don't feel comefretable. I have a lot of stress. A bout a half a year ago I was dissed by my mom. I tried to kill my self. Now I am liveing with my grandparents. When I lived with my mom she called me things like "Fat @$$ and other names. For a hole week I wouldn't eat. I have it in my mind that the reason my mom and dad(I never met my dad) don't want me is because I am fat. I wear size DDD in bra. That hurts. And size 24 in pants. I keep getting bigger and bigger. I think 1 day I am going to explode...(not really) I look at my self in the mera, and I see a beautiful smile, glowing eyes, and then a nasty, peice of fat, that covers my body. I have been to the Dr. and all she did was send me to the nutrinest. That didn't work. I am on depresents bc of me trying to kill my self. I am scared that I am going to get so sngry at my self that I am going to hurt my self, or start a eating disorder. Right now I am scared. I just want to go in the bathroom and throw up. I did it once before. I have tried to get help. I cant run bc it hurts my brest and my legs, back, and my feet, just hurt so bad. I can hardly breath now... but when I am doing things like that It is also hard to breath. I don't know wut to do. I am so mad at me, bc all i do is give up. I have no good immage about me. I am afraid that my b/f is gonna break up with me bc im so fat. pelase help me. I have to do something b4 I hurt my self...