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From chelsea, Age 15

Ok..#1 If you want me to leave the bored that's fine..Let me tell you all something though..I hurt really bad and I bet I've had a harder life then any of you. I do not try to start arguments and I try to help a lot of the people I meet on here..I have made a few good friends that Help me with my weight loss..You can believe what you want about me but I have stuggled with anorexia so long and Its ruined me.....When I stopped starving myself I gained a lot of weight after trying to recover..You can really hurt someone who has been through all of this by calling them a cow and If that's not Immature I don't know what is...You know nothing about me..nothing about my life..You've made me cry and You've just set me off. If you don't believe me e mail me or IM me or something and you'll get to know me. I have a lot of friends and I'm really well liked because I'm such a nice person..The only reason I've been mad here lately is because everything on blubberbusters has been all about anorexia or something else or boyfriends..And If thats what you mean about me being rude then what your doing is a lot worse..calling people fat..My friend Clifford is being called fat in the chat room and people are posting mean things about her too..Maybe you guys that replied don't like me because I stood up for myself when you said something rude or acted stuck up to me. Clifford know's me and know's the fact that I have been through eating disorders for so long...I was teased really bad as a little kid..( while having other problems at home ) and kids picked on me day in and day out..and then I got really sick with eating disorder..I had them all ..you name it..anorexia, bulimia, mia..all of them on and off for 5 years..As for right now I have a binge eating disorder and It makes me feel so mad at myself and so guilty..God only know's what Is next. I want to get better and I want to be a normal kid.....I don't want to waste my life away worrying about my weight and people that call me fat and say things like you do don't help any. I didn't even realize I was being mean or you know..whatever but your being much worse to me. When I first came to this site It was nice ...People supported eachother..There were no posts about boyfriends or anorexics..It was all about us trying to help eachother with our goals and now It's turned in to this freak show where everyone wants to make fun of other people, try to get boyfriends, and people who want to turn anorexic. Do you know that its hard for me to hear about anorexia because I use to struggle with it so bad and I feel guitly about being semi-normal now. If you get to know Me I'm actually a really sweet person. I want to help people with problems that most of us here all face and I'm just trying to use this site as something to incourage me and inspire me to reach my goal..My goal is to be healthy and confident with my self again..but people calling me fat is just making it harder. But anyways I'm going to say this with all honesty and It's not being sarcastic..I am sorry for swearing and being mean to a few of you..I remember I was mean to Anne and I'm sorry for that..but I believe you were making fun of me and That's why I said something..Anyway..I'm not going to ramble on anymore