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From Jessika, Age 16

Hey, alright i know you people probally dont want to here about my sad life, but im tellin it anyways. Im 142 pounds and im only 5'1 and being fat is ruining my life well i dont know what life its exactly ruining cuz i have no life. it seems like because im fat i cant do anything and that its holding me bak, i feel like i cant have fun or just be myself cuz everyone is watching me and judging me. Also a result of me being fat is that ive never had a b/f (i know its sad)i just never had the self confidence or the courage to ask a guy out, and actually recentely i was getting really close to a guy im super in love with but i shyed away cuz i feel im not good enough for him and he would never go for a fat girl like me. not only is my love life and social life depressing (cuz i have no friends and never get invited anywhere) but my family life SUX, its actually probally the main reason i hate myself so bad, my mom who thinks she tryin to help buys me stupid diet pill and slim fast which ive never asked for, i feel like shes calling me fat but in a nice way, also my brother who will probally be the cause of my sucide, he always calls me fat, fattie and teases me and and tells me to go drink some slim fast and he say this stuff in front of his friends . i hate them, especially when they try to understand and tell me they know how i feel, cuz they dont my whole family is built like toothpicks , even my twin sister who weighs 98 pounds and my mom only 100 pounds,itsso funny when my mom tells me she know how i fell cuz when she was growing up she was too skinny, so compared to them i feel like a hippo, and i dont even understand how i became fat cuz i dont eat anymore than anyone else and i pretty much hate junk food especially chocolate or anything lil debbies or hoss's(yuck) and dont get me wrong, i know isound like all ive done is wine and complain and im sorry, but i have tried to lose weight but its so hard especially for someone with no will power and its hard to keep a diet a secret, i couldnt bare it if anyone knew about me trying to lose weight my family and friends would make fun of me, i just need help any help at all to lose weight, and keep it a secret, i have lost 10 pounds throughout the past year by just cutting out pop but i honestly dont see any difference and ive been at the same weight for a really long time. so does anyone have any ideas