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From kelly, Age 15

hi this is my first time on this site. my name is kelly and im 200lbs. i feel awful cause im just now startin to realize how fat i am. i have acne too. i guess its cause of all the jusnk i eat. there was a time inn my life where i was never this big. and i was in a serious relationship. we broke up feb 16. it hurts like hell. we are still bestfriends tho. he hasnt seen me i like 4 months. i wanna see him b4 i go to nyc but im scared to show him how bad the break up hurt me. after we broke up i stop caring and gained weight like crazy. i wanna lose weight to be like i was before. i used to be so confident and full of life. now its like its like i cant be that same person cause everyone eyes are on me. i feel so ugly. all the boys that used to say i was so sezy now say ewwwww and talk about me behind my back. like did you see what happened to kelly?? and she ugly now. and it hurts. i was always chunky but now im just plain fat. no body wants me. i just want things to be like the way they were. today was the last day of school. i wanna come back to school next year and just see jaws drop. i wanna be the cute center of attention i once was. i wanna lose weight but i dont know where to start. of could you please show me some love and tell me how. i would really really appreciate it