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From ANN, Age 17

Ok, This doesnt have to do with being overweight but i REALLY need help!!! Im so depressed! I KNOW THIS IS LONG BUT PLEASE READ IT!!!!! Ok, I have been overweight for all of my life. In 8th grade, it didnt matter i was on top of the world. I got my 1st boyfriend (my neighbor since i was 1) and even after he dumped me after a couple months i was still having the best yr. ever. I had great friends and i was involved in alot of clubs including student council. and i was never afraid to speek up. Then highschool started. I am now going to be a senior this coming year and for thee last 3 yrs. ive become enemys with alot of friends, im not inviolved in anything nor can i try being. I never speek out or tlk to anyone who isnt my friend. Theres too much pressure for good grades, im fat, ugly, and i have acne i can NEVER get rid of. I scrach myslef when im pissed, which is ALOT. I have constent mood swings and i cry all the time. I just wish i could be the girl i used to be. I cant change the way i am now, its to hard. When someone trys to correct me or tells me that im doing something wrong, i just wanna explode. Also. My neighbore who i used to date who i become friends with after we broke up is now dating a girl who i couldnt hate more. It took me and him a long time to build up our frinedship again and now he wont F*ing tlk to me when he is with her and they are always at my house because his g/f is frineds with my brother. They have been dating for over a yr she is constently at his house and though i grew up at being at his house alot it hurt me alot when his mom said that she was "the daughter she never had" and now to make it worse she just got hired at the place i have been working for a month. I HATE MY LIFE AND I HATE HER. WTF can i do!!!!! ALSO i have tried telling my mom i am depressed but she wont F*ing believe me and she is soooooo annoying and she has my dad eating out of the palm of her hand since they almost got divorced whe i was in 8th grade. I just got off the phone a few minutes ago with my friend and i said i didnt wanna hang out because i am depressed so she hung up i called her back to tell her that i cant f*ing help it and shes all like "other people have bad days too" and went on about her "bad" day. WTF. So i hung up on her. someone help me!