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From Mo (nickname), Age 14

Ht. 5' 4", Wt. 205 - Hi, Ive posted on this great site and had some very nice people respond to me but hers my story. I came from Russia when I was 9 years old and I was about 4' 2" and weighed 52 pounds. I know, i was really skinny. There was little food their. When I came to America I could eat more so In 2002 I was 11 4' 11" and weighed 82 pounds. Then it happened my apptetite got bigger and bigger and suddenly everyone started telling I was gaining weight. Im like " so what?" i never worried about my weight. I went to the doctor and I was 129 pounds and 5'2" Then I stopped growing and started gaining weight. Last year, I almost got a heart attack from the number on my scale. I was 188 pounds. I had gained 60 pounds in 2 years. So this year I took it easy with food and dieted and I was sure I lost weight (no scale at home). Just last week i went to the doctor again and I was 205 and pounds. I practically cried myself to sleep. My sister is REALLY SKINNY (like 68 pounds at 13 and 5' 3" so I was like 3 times her weight. She and my parents would insult me about my weight all the time. Now I am dieting eating 1200 cals a day i try to exercise but i get out of breath in seconds. Its been two months and I only lost 2 pounds. My belly keeps growing and I think im getting fatter every day. What happened to me? Why did I gain so much weight just by eating a little more than normal. Im probably gonna be fat forever since im so obese. My doctor said I should be 100 pounds. How the @!#$ am I supposed to lose 105 pounds? Help Me please.