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From laura, Age 18

Ht. 5'7", Wt. 209 - I have social anxiety disorder. I constatntly feel like everyone is judgeing me or looking at me and it is very overwhelming. Being overweight certantly does not help. i moved in with my dad who does not understand my anxiety or being overweight. ever since i got here he has been dropping hints to me about weight loss. first i thought i was just being paranoid but the comments became so frequent that there was no denying the point he was trying to get across. telling me to get out of the house and that the exercise would be good for mne and telling me i should join a gym constantly really upsets me. he also comments on my eating. the thing is i do eat healthy, i always have. whenever we go out to eat he assumes that i eat nothing but fast food. then he'll take me to asian restuarants and say things like "if you eat this you'll never gain a pound." just little comments like that on a daily basis are taking a toll on me. i feel like he is constantly judging me. yesterday was a breaking point. he told me that my coat was too small and that we were getting another one. imm not in denile, i know what fits right. im 18 i can pick out the right size of coat. but he took me shopping anyways. i tried on a coat and it was the perfect fit. not too baggy but definitly not to tight. he told me it was way too small so he drug me to another female customer and asked if my coat looked to tight. i was so humilaited and started haveing a panic attack because if you have social anxiety the worst thing u can do is get embarassed in public. the lady agreed with me that it was just right but i was still embaressed. so i put the coat back and said i was done. we got in a littlw fight and he came back with another coat. it was 3 times my size. i was so hurt. i told him it wasn't my size and he asked if it was to small. i again said i was done and he said fine u can get a coat with the buttons buldgin out (which they weren't at all, the front button panal was ruffuled) i said no i didnt want a coat that would embaress him in public and we left. I know i need to lose weight but i don't think that i stand out in a crowd because of it. im curvy, thats how i carry my weight. i want to lose weight for me, not to make him proud of how i look. im just so upset and dont know what to do. when i said i was done coat shopping he said we were going to look for sweat pants becuase i needed to work on joining a gym. any advice?