~ NOT FAT NOT SLIM ~

Hey, I just found this website like an hour ago and I was looking at your storys , decided to put my own. Im 12 years old and have a weight issue since im still a growing girl I know it's normal to gain weight but I feel so dame FAT! My family either reassures me that Im not or gets annoyed when I bring up the subject. I have no idea how much I weigh but last year I was 160 and have lost ALOT of weight since than but I still feel so ugly compared to my other classmates Im about the 4th most heavy person in my class. I tried to exercise but got discouraged easily . On partys I eat : 3 peices of cake , ton of popcorn , soda & as much chocolate as ever. I dont know how to take the next step to losing weight and have nothing to modavate me except the picture of me in a Bathing suit slim and even skinny I want to fit in and I want to be able to look at myself in the morning and say ' Im Beautiful' and be proud to say it.