~ LIFE JUST SUCKS SOMETIMES ~

I've always been fat all my life and it isn't getting any better. Everyone somehow knows how to poke fun at how fat I've become but only I know the pain. Having perfect siblings hasn't made it any better:/ hearing people who are 40kg complaint about how they put on 1kg makes me fell like punching their faces. And after all that talking," oh hey, you're not fat, you're just perfect" .ughh.. Not to mention parents pushing you into diets. I'm fat, I know that. I need help:( I'm 5ft6 and 86kg as of today.HELP:/