From Karin, Age 19 - 05/16/07 - IP#: 128.243.253.xxx Click here to reply Ht. 5'2", Start: 180 lb, Today: 148 lb, Goal: 110 lb - Hi, I've been visiting this site since I was 16, and now I'm back. Last year I was 180 lbs in January and I've managed to get down to my goal weight of 110. I felt great! Of course, it took lots of hard work. But since December, I've put on 38 pounds, and each day I'm getting heavier, I feel. I just lost control and binged on ridiculous portions, like in a typical day I'd have 4 yogurt cups, 4 bowls of cereal, a new box of chocolate chip cookies and finish it all, and that's all on TOP of 3 big meals a day. Then there was this other day where I ate at mcdonalds for 2 meals and ate 8 kitkat bars (8x4=32!!) It's unbelievable, but when I look in my trash can and see all those boxes and wrappers, I have no choice but to think how disgusting it all was. I don't think that I'm fat, but I want to get back down to 110. It's a constant obsession and when I push myself to diet, I binge even more. I realized that I've made my appetite SO big that I'm always hungry. I even tried to just eat 3 meals a day, 2 snacks, and that wasn't enough, and again, I binged before bed. I don't even have enough to wear, because I was so happy about being at my goal weight that I dumped all my old stuff and bought new jeans, jackets, tops...all of which do not fit now. All I have are sweats. Hopeless. Sorry about the long post guys, I just feel so mad at myself and alone, because I have to hide all my garbage. My boyfriend who lives in another country has only known me for the "normal" 110 lbs girl, and not this crazy angry food-obsessed maniac. I don't think he'll dump me for the lbs, but considering how long it'll be til I get to see him, I don't know how much weight I'll put on. How did you do it? Suddenly just eat less and so healthy? DIdn't you get hungry? I lost my weight when I lived at home, where I had my exercise machines and dvds, but now that I'm living on campus, I don't have access to those things. THanks for your support ~ Karin
Reply from Whitney, Age 17 - 05/17/07 - IP#: 207.28.183.xxx Omgosh i do the exact same thing and i can't explain y i mean i've always been nigger but the lowest i got to was like 150 and then i get off track and i binge. I'm not even hungry i just eat as much as whatever is in front of me and i feel so bad afterwards but i just do it again, its a horrible habit and ur definelty not alone! Just try to change small things everyday and keep ur mind to ur goal, u can do this, u know what it felt like to reach ur goal the first time and u can do it again!
Reply from Karin, Age 19 - 05/17/07 - IP#: 128.243.253.xxx Thank you Aly...nice knowing I'm not alone ^^
Reply from aly, Age 17 - 05/16/07 - IP#: 69.250.27.xxx i know how you feel. i went from 118 to 162, and now i'm at 140. i'm ready to be back at 118 but it's so hard. i diet hard, and then lose it and binge. luckily ive gotten somewhat on the right track and im losing weight slowly. don't suddenly stop...make little changes everyday. dont deprive yourself. it takes a long time but eventually your body will learn and you wont even want to binge. its really hard, i know. you can do it...dont feel bad on yourself. everyday is a new day and you just have to believe that you actually CAN do this. its not some unbelievable dream or unattainable goal...if you commit yourself, you WILL lose weight. good luck!
