From Sabrina, Age 13 - 05/30/12 - IP#: 174.54.152.xxx Click here to reply Ht. 5'4", Start: 150 lb, Today: 137 lb (BMI %tile: 87), Goal: 125 lb - Abbie this is for you. Just you. Sometimes life isnt always about rainbows and butterflies. Since I was 7 my mom has been diginosed with RSD do the reasearch on your own time. There is no cure. No treatment except for hard narcotics. Those barley touch the pain. She will never be cured, and even better she is almost done living. She is at the end of stage 3 out of 4. No one knows what stage 5 is like because they all committ suicide before it progresses any further.She is dying sowly and painfully day by day. She is in constant pain. I dont know if u know what that is like to see your mom of 46 years of age pick out her casket and her gravestone, her burial site, and the photo she wants there at the veiwing but let me tell u and belive me when i say im crying right now just thinking about her dying, its not easy.But knowing that one day im going to come home to her body being somewhere life-less is really depressing and realy painfull. She will most likely commit suicide before im 18. Im 13 turning 14 this year. And to top that off she has tried to commit suicide twice already. So why dont you put yourself in my shoes and take that in. Maybe then you can add all of that plus other issues i have and understand why i (used to)cut myself. i will not consider me done cutting untill January 31 2013. Thats the last time i did it this year.Andim not getting a therapist, they do not need to know about me, right now i might sound pathetic and simple minded but no matter how many times i can be tokd to go get help i honestly dont need it. Ive been preparing myself for whe she goes. So im sorry if i corruped your perfect happy world and intoduced you to life. Heres a couple of songs i reccomend u looking up- Never too late,break,lost in you,and Pain by three days grave
Reply from Taya, Age 14 - 05/31/12 - IP#: 198.228.209.xxx Sorry to hear this. Hope things get better! :) {Summers in the air, I can smell it}
Reply from Sabrina, Age 13 - 05/31/12 - IP#: 174.54.152.xxx I hope it does too :D and you didnt need to apologize, but thanks :D and also... most peope try to be like mee, im a trend setter. like im in love with hello kitty, and as of last year so didnt everyone else. :) {my hair is down to the top of my ribs by the way lol. im dying my hair different colors to see what looks best, im dying blonder and if i dont like me as a blonde blonde im dying it to dark brown.} and im not sure your `friend` knows what a scene person is or an emo person... shes is a poser (a wannabe) my friend amanda is just like tht. hahahaha Goodluck!<3 :D i miss him...<3 xoxoxoxo Forever Young<3
Reply from Abbie, Age 15 - 05/31/12 - IP#: 68.13.18.xxx No I wasn't looking down on you and your friend, I was trying to help the cause, but I wasn't I was being mean. I know some people that do cut themselves because they want to be like someone else, and they dye there hair black grow it out shoulder length and there like ' oh my God I such a scene kid everybody wants to be like me.' and I thought they were being dumb. And I'm hoping your not going to end up like that. I also am apologizing for what I did say even though I said I wasn't going to apologize. I'm really sorry and I can say I also have my days. I hope this ends our being unkind to each other.
Reply from Sabrina, Age 13 - 05/31/12 - IP#: 174.54.152.xxx Abbie i wasnt aiming for you to feel sorry for me, i want you to understand why i did cut. And sometimes i get over emotional, we all do and we cant help that. Im sorry if i stirred up trouble for you, i just felt as if you were looking down upon us. Im not apreciative of people who do that, but you weren`t. Im also sorry if i was a little defensive... you didnt know what was hapenning and i shoudnt have flipped on you. Im sorry for that. Usually im a very down to earth person... i guess we all have our days...
Reply from Abbie, Age 15 - 05/30/12 - IP#: 68.13.18.xxx Alright here's the thing, if you wanted me too feel sorry for you. It worked. My life is not all rainbows and sunshine, kay? And maybe I was harsh. But I've been through a lot of problems like everybody else on this planet. Not regarding my mother though. And I hope your mom gets better. But if you have a problem with cutting and your friend too. Please try and help yourself, cause I know your mom wouldn't want that for you. I have a problem with being lonely and not having many friends, do that led me too doing something ( and I'm still doing it) but this site won't let me put that word on here. I watch and this is an all the time thing as soon as I get a moment to myself I do it and it's hard to stop now that I'm addicted to it and its not drugs. So that is why I'm on this site, it's too making me feel better about myself. And I didn't want to start any drama but I tend to roll my eyes a lot and that is one reason I don't have many friends. I'm sorry about your mom and if really did know about what was going on in your family I wouldn't have said anything, but I would have thought it.
Reply from Jessica, Age 16 - 05/30/12 - IP#: 108.28.147.xxx I'm so sorry I had no idea. I am so sorry about your mom. With the friend thing I agree with Jessica.
Reply from Jessica, Age 16 - 05/30/12 - IP#: 184.6.214.xxx Sabrina IM really sorry about your friend,, that really sad,, there are treatment centers for sautions your friend is in,, you know what!! spend time with her as you can at your party!!!! you still tell her how you feel,, ok.. Jessica16.
