From Daisy, Age 14 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 24.91.30.xxx Click here to reply
Hey everyone. I'd really really like someone to talk to right now. If you have time read this- I'll try to make it short as possible.I dont know why but I started to think i was disgustingly overweight about a few months ago. I'm not sure why or when exactly it started, and people ask me all the time for reasons that I can't give. So I began starving. At first I felt guilty but couldn't stop. I'm obsessed with weighing myself after eating anything and now I dont even have a concience about chucking the sandwiches my mom makes into the trash. My mom has been battling my dad for a long time now since he was jailed for defrauding the bank, and when she noticed how I was losing weight (which I have but not enough) she yelled at me saying I was ugly and that I was ruining the family. I tried throwing up sometimes but it never worked. On vacation without the scales to weigh myself I felt savage and crazy, really out of control and anxious all the time. The first thing I did when I got home was jump on the scales. I'd managed to lose a few pounds. I was ecstatic, but not happy enough. I went through periods of binge eating then starving, and now its plain starving. But I love that hungry, empty feeling. I know its sick but I feel so in control and powerful- happy with myself. I've also got more obsessed with other things. As a habit now I bite not only my nails compulsively, but the skin on my fingers. I actually rip off my skin with my teeth until my fingers bleed and are so sore when I move or touch anything it hurts. They're crusty, red and raw now but I can't stop even though it's sore. I've become obsessed with school work and tidying things up which is strange, and I've noticed it myself but can't stop it.I went to see a doctor but hated him- I didn't want to say anything. He referred me to a specialist psychiatrist for E.D.s. My periods have stopped. I feel lethargic and sick all the time, and I get headaches and get cold. I can't sleep.I'd really like to talk with someone who is going through it. I know its a problem and I've been diagnosed with anorexia. When people say I'm thin I can't believe them. I really REALLY dont understand. Once my sister poked my ribs and said that they sticked out, and for one of the first times in my life I hit her, burst into tears and ran away.I feel like a freak in my home and really isolated. My mom isn't sympathetic and she sometimes says its attention seeking, and says I'm mentally ill. I really want to talk to someone because I hate what I'm doing and know its wrong but cant bear the thought of stopping.Please, I'm scared.Daisy xxx
Reply from Krystal, Age 15 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 64.12.116.xxx i agree completely to ashley! u cant just wake up and stop having anorexia. Daisy, do your best 2 work with your doctor and fix this problem. It may take time, but good luck to slowly come back 2 your normal eating ways. Gradually start 2 try and eat more--if that helps any. I am no expert, but i am sure your doctor can help.
Reply from ashley!, Age 15 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 206.222.221.xxx i am not trying to be rude to anyone who has posted, but one of my best friends has anorexia. My friend sounds very similar to Daisy. You people who post..dont lecture her that she is hurting her body and she needs to stop. You can not just wake up one morning and stop having anorexia. It is mentally in your head. So please..just give her support and stop telling her that she is bad for doing this. Thank you
Reply from ashley!, Age 15 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 206.222.221.xxx hey. What you need to do is go to a doctor that you like. It would probably be easier to go to a women doctor than a man. Tell your mom you need to go because you are scared and she should see that your health will deteriorate. If you cant get to a doctor, talk to a counselor. You can't help this problem on your own. You need professional guidance. you can get help and you are very brave for posting your story. the best of luck!!
Reply from CuTie, Age 17 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 65.142.64.xxx Hi Daisy, my name is Lily. I'm a peer counselor. I've been doing this for 2&1/2years now. I help people to learn to find solutions to all sort of issues. or just talk about stuff bothering them. anything from a bad day, family, and even suicidal situations. I am trained and i'd like to speak to you if you'd like. My e-mail is cccutie1987@yahoo.com, Its a great thing that you are reaching out for help. Remember that if at home u are not recieveing the needed help for your situation u can go to your school. You have to have a support system there whether it be you school psychologist a nurse or a teacher even your principle. You seem concerned for your health and are also dealing with stress at home. It sounds like this is making you sad and unable to find a solution. Its okay to feel like that because believe it or not this a form of you dealing with the feelings you get when things get rough in your life. Yet it is not the healthiest or the only one. So if you'd like to please contact me at my email
Reply from cristina, Age 16 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 24.233.65.xxx Hey I went through a problem similar to you. I do not think to your extent but I can help you because I overcame it. Respond back to this and we can exchange emails or whatever.
Reply from jenna, Age 12 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 69.0.49.xxx Right now I am learning about anorexics in health class. You have to stop! If you keep going like this you could die!!! We don't want that to happen. What is ur weight and height??? If ur ribs are showing that is bad!!! Try going to a school concelor or talk to one of ur best friends. For help, email me at dennisdubois@sbcglobal.com (its my dads, but you could use it) If you need more help, just email me I am here for u and so is everybody else!!!!!! ~jenna~
Reply from fefe, Age 13 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 24.47.130.xxx first of all, u have to stop wut ur doing. Second if u feel ok to talk to ur sister tell her and ask her for help. If u don't want to talk to her or ur mom. Go to ur guidance office in school and talk to her or him and tell him ur prob. and see how it works out. o yea how much do you weigh and wuts ur height?? By ur paragraph it seems that ur small and not fat so try to gain SOME ONLY SOME not all ur weight so ur ribs won't show out ~~~~ttyl and good luck and I mean it~~~~
Reply from kathryn, Age 17 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 80.131.78.xxx Ok, I know youve been told this alot, but you have a serious problem. I could sit here and tell you that you need to stop cuz it WILL kill you, but im not in your position, so i cant understand why you are doing this to yourself, nor can i help you. And unfortunately no one on this site can help you either becuase we are here to loose weight healthily. You really really REALLY need to talk to someone about this. find a local support group. Check into a hospital if your mom wont help you. Do something please!! you can emial me if you want, if you need someone to talk to, and i can try and help you further, -- kathryn_alma@hotmail.com -- and i can see if i can help you. But please, even if you dont email me, do something, cuz you are seriously endangering yourself!
Reply from Lauren, Age 15 - 01/10/05 - IP#: 62.254.0.xxx How tall are you and how much do you weight firstly?
